Fuck it, I'm going to post what I originally wanted to even though this blog isn't the place for it. I have to write it now before my desire to write it fades. This post also contradicts the fundamental rule of my blog, but everything here simply needs to be said.

I feel that somehow I've been left back. I found myself in a very comfortable spot. I had my own apartment in Toronto, making more money that I knew what to do with or at least willing to spend. There is so much to do in this city. Unfortunately, I no longer had any friends who actually lived in the city. This forced me explore Toronto on my own. I watched movies alone. Ate at restaurants alone. Went to art galleries and museums alone. Even attend concerts by myself. At first I hated being alone. I felt like all the lovey-dovey couples were watching me and pointing at me, the loner. But the more I lived as an urban single twenty-something male, the more confident I became in my independence. At some point along the line, I came to relish the fact that I didn't have a girlfriend to hold me back from planning a vacation, or going to a movie, or whatever. I lived life by my rules and everything was good. I was in control of my own life.

In the past few months though, bits of news came trickling in. Person A now had a girlfriend. Person B now had a boyfriend. Person C now had a girlfriend. Person D now had a boyfriend. Holy shit! When did all my friends start dating? I never once knew of any of them going on a date in the five years I knew them in undergrad. In my fury of independent activity, I totally forgot about seriously looking for a girlfriend. I felt that somehow I had been left behind. I don't know how this was possible. I could never imagine some of those people in a relationship before I found someone. I took matters into my own hands. About two months ago, I started to actively seek out a girlfriend again. I put time and effort into it. And I was shocked by the results. Many positive responses, and a few neutral ones, but definitely my best dealings with the opposite sex in my entire life. The difference is my confidence in my independence. Confidence is sexy, and I think that has contributed to my success. My outlook on relationships also changed. I no longer longed for a girl to complete my life, but rather a girl to complement my life. I was not looking for a life partner, but a partner who was compatible for this stage in my life. I no longer needed a girl, rather it would be nice to have one around. And around me they have been in recent weeks. A decision has been made though. Shortly, I will abandon my masculine polygamist tendencies and settle with "the one for now".
posted by Pi at 12:12 AM |

 
Fuck. My daily drivel has been out of commission and there's so much that I want to write. Too bad what I want write to doesn't belong on this blog. Instead, let's talk about how the list of DVDs I currently own perfectly describes my life. My list in order of purchase:

Elevation 2001: U2 Live From Boston, U2: Rattle and Hum, U2: The Best of 1990-2000
These are the first three DVDs that I bought. I owned these even before I owned a DVD player. These are essential for any U2 fan.

New Order: 511
A concert video of my second favourite band. Not quite as dramatic in concert as U2, but they make damn fine music. Perhaps the best synthpop band of all time.

Spider-Man: Collector's Edition
When I was in grade 5 and I was collecting money for my paper route, a woman gave me The Amazing Spider-Man #316 as my tip. That was the start of my decent into comic books. Ever since then, Spider-Man has been my favourite comic book superhero. I totally related to Peter Parker and his escape from the real world as Spider-Man. The only difference between him and me was that he could get the babes and I couldn't.

High Fidelity
I came down the stairs from my room to get a drink when roommate was watching this movie. I was immediately drawn when John Cusack reeled off his "Top five breakups of all-time." The marriage of music and relationships spoke directly to me. I bought the book and eventually the DVD.

Rushmore
After watching X2, I went to get a few drinks with my friends. HMV was on the way home so I decided to stop by there. I saw this movie on sale as part of the 2 for $30 promo. I'd never seen this movie before, but everyone told me to see it. How could I resist? I bought it and stayed up to watch when I got home. It was then that I realized that I was Max Fischer, except slightly less extreme.

So there you have it folks, my life as described by my DVD collection. Music, lists, comics, failed relationships. How High Fidelity!
posted by Pi at 11:30 PM |

 
Send your name to a comet as part of the Deep Impact project. Thanks to Sarah for the link.
posted by Pi at 7:57 PM |

 
I'm going to Vancouver. Yay me. Any suggestions for activities?
posted by Pi at 7:54 PM |

 
If you want to know about last night, please send me an email.
posted by Pi at 1:53 AM |

 
Ever wonder about the origin of life? Look no further than panspermia.
posted by Pi at 1:53 AM |